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title	date	techne	episteme
A Meditation on Hate	2012-02-07	:wip	:believed

Jesus says, I have let loose fire upon the world, and behold, I tend it until the world is consumed.

-- Thomas 10

Something bad happened. The specific harm is of no relevance.

I knew that the pain would diminish, would be transformed away. Time would pass and eventually, I would not grief anymore. But then something unique happened. I resented this change.

This is the flip-side of the Hedonic Threadmill. Even your hate, your grief, all your acquired and justified pain, will eventually be taken from you.

I refuse. I will not be denied my grief.

I will not forget. Every day, I reinforce it.

[Seek no transformation][Stances]. Do not shape your emotions into other, nicer emotions.

I have nothing but hate for the world. It will not be taken from me.