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@ -38,7 +38,7 @@ I find it funny how easy it is to disbelieve all of those when you try so explic
Weirdly, I'm no longer perceiving some stuff I thought were sensations as sensations, but actually as symbols now. (Note: I should at some point explain what I mean with sensations vs. symbols. (Note: I should at some point understand what symbols are.))
I tried standard anapana, paying attention to the breath, making a mental note whenever I had any actual sensation of the breath. (And not a thought about it, an unrelated experience, or just the expectation of it.) I then noticed, holy shit, that thing I've been noting as "breath" all the time *isn't actually the breath*, it's just a symbol "here there be breathing". I rejected it, looked for the actual sensation. After maybe a minute, I got worred because *I couldn't find any*, but I was still clearly breathing.
I tried standard anapana, paying attention to the breath, making a mental note whenever I had any actual sensation of the breath. (And not a thought about it, an unrelated experience, or just the expectation of it.) I then noticed, holy shit, that thing I've been noting as "breath" all the time *isn't actually the breath*, it's just a symbol "here there be breathing". I rejected it, looked for the actual sensation. After maybe a minute, I got worried because *I couldn't find any*, but I was still clearly breathing.
I compromised and started noting warmth in my lungs, contraction of certain muscles etc. as "breath"(-ish), but *those began to disappear too*. The warmth mostly stayed, but muscle movement has a separate kinetic layer (independent from "intentions to move" and "spatial orientation") on top of it *that I never really noticed*. (Which makes me think my previous vipassana must have been really shitty if I missed *that*.)